Just Stay Silent (February 27, 2016)

Just stay silent.

Let them rip out every ounce of self appreciation you have.

Just stay silent.

Let them constrict your will and taint your innocence.

Just stay silent.

Let them murder your soul and devour your joy.

But whatever you do, please….. please, just stay silent.

Because the moment you speak will be the moment that you break.

No matter what hurt is placed on you, only you know the blades that cut deep enough.

Only you can cause the greatest damage.

And only you are capable of your own destruction.

Just stay silent, and you might just live to see another day.

Copyright © 2014 Ashlie Pfeifer

Forever and Always : December 13, 2014

She’s like an electric jult surging through my soul.

The way pictures of her flood my mind and a love for her floods my heart.

Although I can’t quite explain this feeling,

I tremble in thoughts of trying,

because I know that no matter what it is I say it will never compare to the things she does to me

The way she makes me feel.

The way she makes me smile.

She is beyond words.

I only wish I can spend every moment trying to make sense of it all

just knowing that one day she will be the one I wake up to and the one I fall asleep next to.

The one I get to hold in my arms and kiss in the storm

The one I get start a real future with,

knowing that when the world has decayed and finally withered away, she will still be the one that holds my heart.

She’s my  forever and always Honestly, what more can I say. 

Copyright © 2014 Ashlie Pfeifer

My Girl : December 12, 2014

She asked me to be her forever, I asked her to be my eternity.

Together we desired a future, a promise, a unity.

It was only a matter of time for the days when our eyes would meet.

When I could kiss her lips, to taste a love so sweet.

When I would hear her voice, playing music to my ears.

When I could hold her tight and protect her from her fears.

When I could take her hand and place it softly with in mine.

When I could finally tell her Missy I’ve wanted you all my life.

So here I am now, as I shout it from the roof tops of the world.

To let them all know, that you’re the one, the only one, that could ever be my girl.

Copyright © 2014 Ashlie Pfeifer

She Is My Storm : December 11 2014

She is my storm.
Her smile surges through me like lightening through my veins.
Her words rip apart insecurities and flood my heart with desires of her love.
And her laughter dances in my mind like raindrops kissing my skin.
She is beautiful, she is forever, and she is mine. 

Copyright © 2014 Ashlie Pfeifer

Escape ( October 10, 2014)

Slowly I remove the masked carcass that envelopes my soul. 

Only to let loose the pieces of my shattered remains. 

Here they lie now, 

spread out on the floor, bloody and battered. 

My breath beginning to seize, 

and my heart beginning to fail. 

At least it is a fate made of my own design.

One in which self destruction courses through my veins, 

and a flood of misery drowns all of that around me. 

Perhaps I am cursed.

Doomed to walk the earth as a fragmented part of what I once was.

The vitality no longer remaining, 

and the creatures that once derived from the darkest corners of the world, 

now dwelling within my mind and feasting on my humanity. 

Though, 

Let it be known.

I do not wish to rid them. 

They are nightmares, but they are mine. 

The pain in which they supply is simply a figuration of my own terror that already lies within my subconscious. 

Like a parasite the burrow their way into my head. 

Rapidly multiplying, 

and depleting any vitality left in my damaged being. 

But "oh" how they are beautiful : 

Whispering tantalizing lies in my sleep, 

and caressing my soul with talons of deception. 

I know now what it means to be petrified.

To be truly in a state of utter agony, 

and aware that everything I am is everything I now fear. 

For there lies the irony in life :

As we coward from evil that lurks within places unknown, 

yet not realizing, there is no actual escape from ourselves. 

Copyright © 2014 Ashlie Pfeifer

A Light To Prosper ( Sept. 6, 2014 )

Misery Plagues me like an insidious disease.
Slowly eradicating any pre-notion of the sanity that may follow.
It grants me hopelessness in in the maze of despair and loneliness due to the corruption that my soul obtains.
Perhaps I am cursed.
Damned for all eternity to walk the broken road of these withering remains : 
Those desolate dreams that were once thriving and full of vitality.
Yet now, are to only sustain a shattered darkness that resembles a nightmare in design.
Oh What a life I live,
To but ironically travel in the shadows of death.
Feeling the aged touch of the reapers grasp as it tries to tempt me into an oblivion of possibilities.
Then again, perhaps I am gifted.
To have now understood the sirens call towards a beautiful demise,
yet have also seen the reason behind trying to prosper through her deceit.
To live on, so that I may continue to wander the oceans of sentience 
And to cultivate my soul, so that I too may be immersed in nature's thriving astonishment's.
For this is my purpose, a simple one I'm sure, but mine none the less.
To find happiness in any moment, and to find love in every breath. 

Copyright © 2014 Ashlie Pfeifer

Him Part: 3 ( August 31, 2014 )

The jagged blade that was once used to savagely rip open my heart has now rusted.

The tip broken and gouged into my flesh.

Endlessly hidden by healing lacerations and fabricated smiles.

The edge of this, once beautiful destruction, has now left nothing but a damaged organ.

And the memories that were, stay forever engraved into this gash of anguish.

Oh how my heart aches for the ones who once held the spine of that weapon.

Such damaged creations, yet only mine to endure.

Perhaps I should exorcise this demon that’s planted its grip within my soul.

Yet tell me, how do I kill what I am… without dying myself?

Copyright © 2014 Ashlie Pfeifer