Lifeless ( June 28, 2011 )

Pain is but a substance, used to forever beat the blood back into my decaying heart.
Slowly and viciously my chest begins to compress against my lungs.
Here I am , no longer one of life, but rather that of a lifeless corpse
Trapped to watch others as their way of humanity mocks me.
There all alone in the darkness, forgotten as if I never existed to begin with. 
Then suddenly through my selfish misery, I find a glimpse of light.
It warmth radiates as it offers Nirvana.
Finally I can breathe again. 

Copyright © 2014 Ashlie Pfeifer

I Wish They Knew ( Sometime in 2011) - 2nd Ever Rhyming Poem

I wish they knew the real me.
Someone who can cry and bleed.
I wish they saw something more.
But still the trap me in this horror.
And though I scream and fight and yell, 
They keep me in this bubbly shell.
Just to say they disapprove, 
Then go around to change their mood.
All I want is for them to know.
That I love myself, yet I am so much mroe.
Then what they seem to want to see.
I guess they'll never know the real me.

Copyright © 2014 Ashlie Pfeifer